​Today, I wanted to go to church, and I didn’t want to go to church.  It’s an hour drive one way.  I work every day of the week, and Sunday is the only day I can sleep in, so I got up late and cooked a brunch for my sons.
 
Then I cooked some soup and did laundry. I debated about driving to church.  I really wanted to stay in my pajamas and not wash my hair today.  But at the last minute, I decided to go to church.  Sometimes, I resist the things I need the most.
 
Things are not smooth sailing in my life right now because I recently found out a close family member has cancer, yet today, I felt well rested.  I felt like I was handling things okay today and maybe I didn’t need church.
 
I pray every morning, but sometimes, I need more to fortify myself.  I realized that I was starting to view church like I view exercise.  I can’t do a physical or spiritual practice once and think I’ll be strong.  I need to keep practicing to stay strong.
 
Surrounding myself with people who care about being good and loving and helping others is so nourishing for me.  I am not trying to promote any particular religion, but it’s immensely helpful to me to be around people who are on a spiritual path. 
 
I ain’t perfect by any means.  I swear, and I drink wine with my friends.  But I believe in God, and I care about helping others.
 
My point with this is that I hope maybe you think about what you are resisting.  Are you resisting anything that is actually helpful to you?  If so, why?
 
Sometimes, I resist doing yoga.  I love yoga, but there are times when I put my body in poses and my mind starts to quiet down & shit starts to rise to the surface of my consciousness.  Shit that I buried by staying busy and distracted, but it’s good for me to face what I need to face. Yoga makes me stronger physically, emotionally & spiritually.
 
If there is anything you are resisting, I hope you see what it is and let yourself relax in that place.  I hope you find things that nourish you and that you soften to those things enough to let them inside your life to fortify you, to strengthen you, to love you.